Learning To Breathe With No Air
You know the song "No Air" by Jordin Sparks? Well, thats how my life has been the past couple of weeks. However, I am now learning to breathe with no air.


Not only has my heart been broken yet again, but my whole world changed. I was thrown for a loop, not expecting this one bit. I felt so many emotions at once, and didn't know how to deal with any of it. My mind kept playing the what ifs, and I kept wondering what was wrong with me, or what I did wrong. I felt useless. I felt like I didn't matter, and like I wasn't worth anything. I felt incomplete, and not knowing what to do with myself.


Just because you love someone with all of your heart, it doesn't mean that they feel the same, even if they say they do. Promises can be broken as quickly and easily as they are made. People's emotions/feelings can change at the blink of an eye. And no matter how much someone tells you that things are ok, and that you are not losing them, it can all change in a second.


I have spent many days and nights crying over him. My friends tell me I should hate him because of all he has done to me, but I can't bring myself to do that. I just can't. I still love him, and would love nothing more then to be together with him once again. If he was to come back, I would give him one last chance, because I still believe we are meant to be together.


But I have decided, that I am not going to sit around and wait. If another opportunity comes along, I'm gonna take it. After all, isn't that what he is doing? And besides, if it's meant to be, it'll happen, right?


And in the meantime, I'm gonna live my life for ME. It's not gonna be easy for me to do this, but I am going to work on it, with the help of my amazing friends.


And that's what I call "learning to breathe with no air."